Weight of It All

July 29, 2025 @ 9:33pm

Where do I begin? I guess I can start with the fact that 2025 has proven to be the hardest year of my life. It feels like this year and 2024 have been about lost and more lost, and some things I thought I had gained, I am losing them too. I know this all sounds vague but even with my vagueness I know there are many who can understand. It's like having something or someone for so long, then they are gone. And while you are dealing with the absence of it all, you find a ray of sunshine. That light that makes you feel good, feel right and feel like you can conquer the world. But soon that light goes dim, because the light is not fed properly…so the light gets low, then lower until it’s gone. Once the light goes out, I mean really out, what could happen? What will or who will remain? Saying goodbye to Daddy in January then my Granny this month, July…was harder than I could imagine. Losing them and then losing the ray of sunshine, that I thought I had found, has left me feeling weighed down by it all and I need things to lighten up. Can anyone else relate to needing to drop the weight that life keeps laying on your shoulders? All I know is God keeps telling me to be patient and keep the faith. And so I will, And so it is.