Bye, Bye L.S.E.!

February 21, 2026 @ 10:02pm

Well, hello world. This evening’s Blog Entry is one where I share some deep reflections I am having in my life. Some may think it’s too much, some may be confused by it. What I will say…I am sharing my truth because I want to and I need to, period…It has been too long and truthfully I’m not sure where to begin. This new year has begun with me turning a half of a century old, and that has really changed something within my soul. Life has been…I don’t even know how to describe it, at this moment. I am 50 now and I feel like this chapter of my life has marked the end of negative thoughts & behavior, the end of relationships that only make me feel like less then, the end of years & decades of people-pleasing. Let me define PEOPLE-PLEASING, according to Google "it is a behavioral pattern of consistently prioritizing others' needs, feelings, and opinions above one's own, often driven by a deep-seated desire for approval, fear of rejection, or conflict avoidance." I have done this my whole life, well since middle school. Now at 50…I am focused on one thing PEACE…real peace for me & my child. A peace that some will not understand, a peace that begins in the depths of my soul so much that it radiates from my being, my eyes, my smile. For too long, I’ve given off, in my eyes & my head, low self-esteem vibes. Always lacking something, always falling short of, always feeling like I’m less than. So many times I have doubted my goodness, my kindness, my intelligence, my beauty…and I have replayed negative messages in my head, so much so, that I lost belief and love for myself. No more of that..time for days of thinking that Hope is more than enough, and loving me primarily and genuinely so I can heal & grow. I will establish new routines and ways to get through the day, that center around peace for me & Hannah. We (me & my Princess), will be shining bright like a diamond. The world will see 😃