Deferred not Disregarded

April 12, 2024 @ 5:40pm

I sit here thinking about my life and I feel like so much time has been wasted, by me, second-guessing myself, my intelligence, my talent, my beauty…me. And then I think about all the Black women, in this world, who end up choosing to not follow their dreams. Whether they deferred their dreams for their spouse, their children, their parents…they deferred their dreams because of love. I struggle with this thought, often these days, as I REALLY embark on this life as a writer. I am a chronic overthinker-and that means I have insomnia where I am thinking about EVERYTHING sometimes. I worry about bills, rent, my family, the household needs…but then I stop and I have to smile. You see, because I’m loved I will be ok. Bills will be paid, and so will the rent. And on top of that, I will figure out how to be a writer, wife and mother while adjusting to my new normal. I said I wanted to work from home, now I do. I said I wanted to write books, and that is exactly what I am doing. I said I wanted to publish a book in 2023, and I did, “Piece A Cake”. I am so thankful that my dream was only deferred and therefore not dismissed or disregarded.