Anticipation instead of Anxiety

April 18, 2024 @ 11:33pm

So my first Book Fair is happening in 2 days, well actually less than 48 hours from now. I am excited but trying to make sure that I play it as cool as I can. Stress is no one’s friend, and so this time, as I am moving in my purpose, I will not allow stress to be a part of my big day. It will be about my joy. My joy for seeing myself more now than I have in a long time…maybe ever. In the first blog post, I spoke about stepping INTO my purpose, and so now that has been done. I’ve stepped into it. I am now walking IN my purpose and there is a big difference between the two. In the beginning of this journey, I felt like I was starting a new chapter of life. And now I am IN the chapter, a few pages in, and I am learning, daily, about myself and the steps I need to take to get my books read by many. It is something I feel in my blood. It is a feeling that tells me that it's just a matter of time, faith, belief, and trust before writing does for me, what it did for Maya . And what is this IT I keep talking about? This means that writing will provide me and my family with all that is needed and wanted. It means that my stories will reach children, families, all over the world. My stories will connect children in a way that allows them to learn about each other as well as getting a better sense of self. So instead of anxiety, I am feeling anticipation. Instead of feeling nervous, I am feeling excited. Instead of feeling like I'm an “impostor”, I feel like I AM a Writer, unapologetically. I AM a Mother, humbly & strongly. I AM a Wife, lovingly and supportively. I AM a Daughter, respectively & caringly. I AM a Sister, Niece, Cousin, and Auntie, genuinely and proudly. Anticipation is the word, y’all.