Melancholy is the Word

October 17, 2024 @ 5:09pm

Another week coming to an end, which means another weekend is coming. I am currently feeling somewhat melancholy. Melancholy is defined as having a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no cause. So the pensive sadness, I totally can relate to but I cannot say that it is with no cause. I have really been trying to stay positive about all aspects of my life. Repeating affirmations, praying and have even had some moments where I was able to focus on my breathing. I have been trying to ignore and/or deny the feelings of sadness that seem to be around a lot these days. But today, I realized that allowing myself to be sad about the sad things in my life is ok. In fact, it is necessary for me to feel it all, because letting it all be felt, and then released gives me a chance to get it out, tears of joy & tears of sadness. Right now the only thing on my mind is my Dad’s face as I held his hand today. Melancholy but with a cause.